Headed for Ohio

‎Grant just left for Ohio, and I miss him already.... I'm probably gonna cry tonight... Lol! But it'll be alright.... It'll just be a bit lonely without him here...

I'll have to call him every day. Told him to call me in the morning whenever he gets the chance, so... He'll probably arrive in Ohio around 7 or so.... Then he'll probably sleep for a bit... Hopefully, he'll call me sometime later.

I'm so gonna miss him like crazy...

~Courtney~

All the Tears in the World

So my fiance, Grant, is probably going to end up heading back to Ohio tomorrow.  It was originally Saturday night that he was going to head back, but since he doesn't have work, he thought tomorrow would be best, 'specially seeing as on New Years Eve there'll probably be drunks and cops flooding all the roads.

I suppose it will be safer...  Though, it still saddens me....  Almost cried in the car today, riding back from work with him...

Just been thinking about it....  For 3 months I won't even be able to hug him again...  It'll be alright though, I know.  We've been separated before anyhow, and 3 months isn't gonna kill us.

In a way, I think God might be trying to show me something through this...  I mean, it's really been reminding me of Jesus in some ways...  Not that I'm exalting Grant as though he were as great as Jesus was.

But....  It's kinda like Jesus in that...

When Jesus died, all His disciples were so sorrowful...  Like I'm going to be when Grant leaves....  But then, after 3 days, He rose again and returned to them.  Similar to how Grant is going to return to me in 3 months.

Another way it reminds me of Jesus is how Jesus told His disciples that He was going away to prepare a place for Him, but He would return to take them to Himself.

Grant's also going away to prepare a place for us after we're married....  And similar to Jesus, the Bridegroom, Grant is going to return in order to marry me...  It's like Jesus and the Church.

I really think God is trying to teach me something about Himself through this, and it's pretty amazing....  I really believe our love has been a beautiful thing...

And I'm SO glad God brought us together how He did.  Everything has been so good and worked out perfectly according to His plans.

Jesus has really done marvelous things in our lives.  I hope He continues to use us to be a light and a blessing to others.

I know that I'm going to miss Grant very much...  And there are times when I'm going to cry for him, I'm sure....

And if we miss our earthly loves that much when they're gone, how much more should we yearn to see Christ, our Lord and Savior...?

The One who loved us more than His own life.  The only perfect One, who would never do anything to hurt us, and in the end has promised to wipe away every tear from our eyes and bandage up all our wounds.

So merciful...so kind....  I can't tell you how many times I've cried to Him, and He has heard me.

I can feel His presence in my room...  I speak aloud to Him, and He answers me and comforts me.  No one has ever been there for me as much as He has, and I love Him more than anything in this world.

Sometimes I hate it when He corrects me, and I complain to Him about it....  Like, "I know, but..."  But, I know I must always submit....  Sometimes it's a little bit difficult...

Especially where it concerns other people...  But I must obey Jesus.  Even if it means giving in to things I believe are unfair.

I know I'm going off on a rabbit trail here...

Haha....  Sorry.  =)

Back to the subject.  Grant's heading back up to Ohio tomorrow.  I won't get to see him for 3 months.  Though he is getting me a phone, so I'll be able to talk to him more easily with that.

Still, I'll be incredibly depressed when he leaves...especially the first few days....  I'll try to keep my head up, but I have a feeling there'll be a lot of tears flooding my pillow at night.

Yeah...  I'll miss him something fierce, but all in all, I know it'll be alright.  God's plans are ALWAYS perfect, and I have faith that things will all work out how He wills.

Anyways, He sees more than I do and knows whats best for us and others.  Maybe Grant will be able to be a light up in Ohio.  Something that can help to lead others out of the darkness and into Christ's saving arms.  =)

And perhaps God isn't yet finished with me here.  Maybe I have a part to play in Virginia still.  Who knows...?  God's will be done in it all though, and may He bring about the most good through every situation.

Even through the destruction men bring about through their sin, God has the power to use it all to bring about good.  HE'S JUST TOO AWESOME!!!  XD

Lol!  =P

Well, I'm not even 100% sure where I'm going with this anymore, so I think I'm just gonna call it quits tonight.  Love ya all!!!!  And don't even think about denying it...  >=[

I love Jesus.  He loves everyone.  So if you're a real human being, then I love you.  So there.

~Quartney~

P.S.  I love animals too, so...  =P

Christmas.... Oooh... 8o

Christmas...  Will be over in less than ten minutes....  So enjoy the rest of it while you can.  O.o

On a quick note, you should see the pictures my sister took of Grant and I with our matching penguin pajammies!!!  AWESOME!!!!  Lol!!  =D

Don't have them on the computer yet, but I'd SO like to post them!!!  Haha...  =P

That's it for now!!!!

~Quartney~

Little Wooden Cross

Tonight I've been making a little wooden cross for my friend in Michigan, Joy.  It's gone pretty well so far.

I started out with just a slice off of a relatively small log.  Then I got some help from my fiance, Grant, in sawing down the edges to make it into a basic  cross shape.

After that I just dug it out more with the knife, rounded the edges better, and sanded it down pretty well.  I'm still not finished, but this is what it looks like so far:

Perdy sweeet....  =D

I think I'm gonna try making more of these, as well as other shapes for necklaces.  That'd be really awesome and great for gifts!!  

Grant and I are trying to make some coffee mugs for the siblings for Christmas.  They still don't know what we're making.  I think they think it's just going to be containers for us.  But nope!!!  It's for them!!!

We're taking advantage of the fact that they don't know and getting them to help out with the fire and everything.  We're using the hot embers in order to burn out the logs.  

Basically, we just drilled large holes out in the logs we cut.  Then we're starting a fire in the grill.  When some of the wood has burned really well, there's red hot embers left, which we pick up and place in the holes we cut in the wood.  

And pretty much after that, we just blow on the embers and allow it to burn the wood.  Kinda like how the Indians made canoes.  Course, we gotta replace the embers after a while.

And watch out for sparks that wanna fly up into your face!!!  I think I've gotten hit with those at least 3 times now....  2 of them landed on my nose and 1 nearly went in my eye.  Luckily, I snapped it shut in time!!!  Still hurt though....

So yep....  It's been pretty fun doing this stuff lately...  We just gotta try to get everything done in time for Christmas!!!  And try to keep it a surprise....

Well, that's it for now.

~Courtney~

This Is Just Me Saying

First one kinda messed up....  Haha!!!  =P

But uh...this one is better....  =)

~Quartney~

Introduction

Welcome to my blog!!!  (You're gonna love it here, trust me.  *wink wink*)  =D

To say a little bit about me....

My name is Courtney.  I'm an 18 year old girl following Jesus with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength.

Currently, I'm volunteering at The Salvation Army as an administrative assistant, and I've been engaged to a guy who is 6 years older than me since my last birthday back in February.

Oddly enough, Grant and I met on a forums game some years ago when I was just turning 16 and he was turning 22.  Even odder, our birthdays just happen to be on the exact same day, Feb. 19.

We were just distant friends for a while there, but by the time my 18th birthday rolled around, he had decided it was time to ask me to marry him.  So he wrote up a cute little poem...that morning....  And somehow I didn't even catch on.

He had this whole little game idea set up.  He wrote parts of the poem on all these different note cards.  Then he had the cards all hidden in different places, and each card had a hint on how I was supposed to find the next one.

So he put me through this whole game in order to find my last "present"...in front of EVERYBODY at my party....  Even when I had acquired all the note cards and started reading the poem on the back, it wasn't until almost the last line that I realized what he was doing.

When I read all that was on the cards, he got down on one knee and finished the last line of the poem with, "Courtney, will you marry me?"

I was beaming.  My answer was a playful, "I don't know, Grant..."

Then after I had a good laugh at my own joke, I replied more seriously with, "Sure!"

I know...not your typical female who gets proposed to, but hey....  That's me!!!  =D

So that's a real quick run through of how I became engaged to the most perfect man ever.  =)

I haven't nearly told you everything there, but this post isn't about how I became engaged or who my wonderful fiance is.  It's more about who I am and where I am now, so you can kinda know a little more about me beforehand.

Anyways...  As of right now I'm looking at being separated from my fiance for 3 more months, as he's going to be moving back to Ohio with his parents.

Long story short, he moved down to Virginia on May 21st....  Yes, that's right...  The day the world was supposed to end according to some people.  It didn't, however, and I'm honestly pretty glad!!!  Haha...  =P

He was hoping he could get a good job around here, so that we could get married in April (4/13/12) and live somewhat close to my parents.  However, things haven't quite gone as planned.  He has a job currently, working with a friend who does carpentry work.  Unfortunately though, he's not making enough for any apartment around here to accept him.

Our new plan is for him to move back in with his parents, try to acquire a job there, and then in April we can get married and move up there.

No, I don't really want to leave my family and move so far away, but I feel that that may be where God is leading us.  Perhaps He wants us to be a light in the darkness.

I'm not exactly sure where He wants us; I just know that I'm supposed to go where He leads.  And this, I feel, is His leading.  Still praying about it all though.  May God's will be done in our lives.

And I'm not worried about the 3 month separation.  I sure will miss Grant a lot, but we've done this before.  And I believe our bond is even stronger now than it was then.  All we need to do is focus on what needs to get done in order for us to be prepared and talk some everyday if we can.

I'm hoping I can get a phone soon.  Yeah, I know...  Crazy I don't have one yet....  Haha...  Though, I haven't really wanted one so much until now.

So yep.  That's what's happening so far.  And I'm done with this post.  So...later!!!  =D

Not sure what I'll write next, but I've got so much in my head to write....  Honestly though, that actually kinda makes things harder for me in a way...  But, eh...  I'll figure out something.

Blogger better be nice,
~Quartney~